Monday, January 24, 2022

Baby Girl

Here we go again! I know its been roughly years ago since ive been here hahahah! Youve been my friend since i cant go around telling somebody about this. Youve help me many times through my dark days and here i am again clingging to you when the situation goes out of my mind.

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

Ang saya sa feeling na ma fall ka sa taong miss independent yung hndi ka nya kaylangan para tumayo, para mabuhay at para tumakbo sa karera nang buhay. Wala naman kaseng especial sayo para maiangat sya simpleng tao ka lang na may simpleng buhay at simpleng ewan ko ba hahahah! Siya ung tipong tatandang dalaga pero asensado kase maagang namulat sa katotohanang bilog ang mundo, tapos ako eto chill lang sa buhay tamang ipon lang para sa kinabukasan ko(oo ko kase wala pa naman ako asawa o anak).

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

Ive been happy with the time she allotted to me, even thou now i think? I thought? Ive been thinking? Ive known? Ive been overthinking things that makes me crazy enough to say that the distance between us have already been a miles away, No! She doesnt leave me shes there and im here, its just that when you read in between the lines youll know your position, that youre still alone in that room filled with emotions around you.

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

May mga tao tlga na sa una lang magaling ikaw ung tipo nang taong sa una lang matalino, feeling magaling sabay sa huli marupok ayun nafall ka nang di mo alam san ka babagsak pero hinayaan mo lang. Wala din naman talagang matalino sa pagmamahal madaming tanga talaga wag mo nang ipilit umalis kase dun ka din babagsak.

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

She was like a flower in the middle of a desert that keeps on blooming inspite of all the shit around... I mean sand hahahah! Shes a beautiful flower that ive tried to pick up but i am the one who falls unto the hole and now back to the place ive used to be. A place that you and i have been for a decade already. A place where i have been dwelling to myself with only a question of "will she love me?" With a million question hiding behind.

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

Gusto ko siya ehh!!! Hindi naman dahil lang sa maganda sya kundi dahil sa personality nya and background. Nafall ako kase bago sakin ung katulad nya. Baka nga ikahiya pa ko nang magulang ko pag nakilala nila si baby girl kase kung ikukumpara ehh lamang sya sakin, hindi sa pangmamaliit sa sarili ko pero ganun talaga. Madiskarte sa buhay, matalino, masipag, maganda, mabait(na nasa loob din ang kulo), family orriented atmay takot sa diyos.

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

Yes, she still dont want to have a commitment as of now or as i have known yet i also need something to hold on, its hard to climd a mountain when you only clinging on a string. its not that i want to walk around it to be on top, i can manage to climb it but i also want to be safe not just take a risk of falling and breaking myself. Ive already tried it and hurt myself so maybe its not bad to make myself safe sometimes right?

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

Hindi naman kase tayo pabata at hindi rin naman tayo naglolokohan pa sa buhay diba? Alam mo na kabilang ako sa nasaktan bumangon at handa ulit masaktan, pero nagisip sa una at sa huli eto nagbabalik ulet hahah! Gusto ko lang naman magging masaya at oo nagging masaya naman ako sa kakaunting panahon na sana magtuloy pa kase nakakasawa nang mahulog nang paulit ulit sa maling tao na sana siya na ung huling mali kase sya na rin ung magtatama.

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near.

Its hard to know the answer to a question when you ask it to yourself, cause you will always have a supporting question and answer to it. You can make it simple and hard at the same time, answer it with a yes or no but also an another question because you cant prove it just answering your own question. And you end up overthinking just by a simple question of "does baby girl love me?"

Yes she was my baby girl and yet still dont know how? How to say it, to explain it or how to prove it. Its just that i like her but she seems to be far away yet she seems so near. She loved me the way i want it and i just dont know if i returned it back enough or i just fucking ruined it for her to say she loved me too. I loved you bbgirl 💛









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