a night with a doubt

There was one evening when i was watching the television and even thou it was almost 2:00 in the morning i just cant even feel asleep, it feels like i want to do something i don't even know, craving for something to eat but i don't know what is it, and after a minute i end up thinking of someone who is really important for me and then i smile out of nowhere and think that i was crazy of what i am doing, i just think of you and the memories that we made, happiness that we share, problems we pass through, and success that we celebrate.


If there would be a time that you see what i see you'll know how much i adore you and see that even thou there are many people around me you shine like a star cause for me you're the most precious person ever. And if ever you feel what i feel you can say how much i love you, how much i feel pain when you feel angry to me and feel so much sorrow when you are far away to me. Or a time that you know what i am thinking you'll know that you're the one who crosses my mind if i think of someone that is important to me or when times that i feel alone and all i can do is to think of you. And maybe if you walk the path all the way to me you'll see that i am in the end waiting and smiling, for you to be with me and for me to show you how much i love you and you'll never regret that it's me that you loved.

There are things that i wanna do that i can't do, not because i don't want but because i am not enough to do it. I just want a life that is enough for me to enjoy it at full, a life that everyone dream of and anyone wouldn't resist to have. I fill it with smiles and happiness with persons that is special to me and lastly a love life like everybody wants too, a seem perfect life is enough for me to enjoy it even without the money but with you is good enough to say that i have the best life.

Heartbreaker

i thought it was going to be the last and it would last forever

it makes my heart so happy to think that it might happen this time

to think that shes the best girl that I've seen or may seen in my whole entire life

she can be the girl of my dreams, the girl i want to be with when i am dreaming

she is the girl that can fit to my heart and make it smile in spite of many problems

i want her and i love her with all of my heart and i will promise to prove it

but it didn't happen the way like fairy tales do or end with a happy ending

it was just goes like a simple relationship a commitment between a girl and a boy

it was like a gum, you can enjoy it at first cause it is sweet but will not last for a long time

like a tree that in time the leaves will fall apart and leave the branches
like an ice cream sooner it will melt and scatter in the your hand
it can be like others even thou you don't even want to

i thought it can be fixed just like other stories that end in a happily ever after
a story that is full of pain, unexpected issues, conversations, problems and breakups
it was like a full disaster that i don't really know why it happen to be like that
i didn't do it on purpose or for any reason i just want my story to be happy
all i want is to have the most seem perfect relationship that a man like
but it happen to be my worst heart break ever a man would hate

but really, life is unfair to all mankind if you will just look deeper at it
it will make you think that being with someone will make your story at ease
but sometimes it can happen that way but at always will be a disaster for you
we all want to have the greatest love life for us and be the luckiest person we dream of
but the more we dream of it or the more we push to have it the more pain we will get to it
cause not all things we want to have or even if you only wish for it in life sometimes it not meant to happen

Heart of Living

There is no such place that looks like a paradise

Those are only imaginations of people

They just think of a place that makes them happy

To be able to withstand their sorrow and sadness

For me, paradise is a place where i can be with you

For it is the place that i can talk to you

A place where i first go after a wake up in the morning

And be with someone that is special for me

The place that i am happy just being with you

To talk with you can be happier than going anywhere

You will only see smiles on me because you're there with me

And makes me feel special cause you're the reason why i smile

I always stay in that place when i am bored

It takes away my sadness, for i can do many things there

I can also be there  with my beloved family

And make some happy moment with them or with my someone

Sometimes i sleep there, but i cant take a bath

A can eat any breakfast, lunch and dinner but i cannot wash dishes

I literally watch TV and play computer or just sit there

Do different things and also do household choirs

 The place that i always stay and do many things

Is the place that is the heart of a house

The place where a family are happy together

The "sala" is the place that look like a paradise