for me and YOU

iv'e waited so long to be with you but things never goes to what i expected to happen and fate doesn't seem to be on my side, everything that happen under the sun is unstable it can change any moment with a wrong move, it can be your best dream or your worst fail. people can change fast like a weather, a moment ago she's sweet later start of war, a minute ago your friends later frienemy, before she's your girlfriend the after your "EX", yesterday i am just a suitor now your boyfriend, this morning a single guy later in the afternoon a married man, feel sad just now then you make me smile. See there are many changes that a person can do but most of all people changes their personality or attitude but changing it maybe good or bad.

Though i patiently waited for that moment to happen when the time comes when i learned that everything that you wish for may not be the answer that god would give you, that every simple wish you make is difficult to take, every little wish you want to happen makes your life a bit hard to take, and that small wish you ask have a bigger chance to fail cause not all wishes can be granted and not all of that happens cause you wish for it. that moment when you met someone that makes you happy and contented is the time when god granted your wish but still a challenge for you to make that someone stay at your side until the end that you will stand in front of him wanting to have his guidance and blessing for both of you to have a wonderful start and a peaceful ending of your promise to god that you will love each other till death do us part.

Every relationship has its own story to share but do not have the same plot or start, for us? I don't know where our story started maybe the time when i first met you or the time when my heart start to say that he's fallen from you, but you know what every story that i have never had a sad ending for me cause every one of it makes me who i am today and if i will have another story in the near future i know it will give me one step ahead to my future self, even if you make me remember on of it i will proudly say "well its my past and i don't have any hard feelings about it cause I've already moved on :)" haha

"Past always makes who you are in the present, present choices and action makes who you are in the future, and the future is always a surprise and the sum of your past and present."

my Miss National Support Center

There are people that will change your life, daily routine, attitude, etc.

People that will cross your life and be someone that will be something for you

People that you may know now but in time will be just a part of your past

People that is now part of your past, present and soon also in the future.

Someone had just change something in me just a month ago

she is something that i dont know why but my heart cant resist  it

She is someone i just met for a while but i think i want to know her more and more

She became an apple of my eye, the girl in my dreams and a part of my heart
I want to make her happy and be the one to be the reason of her every smiles

So i can be someone that can be by her side everytime she needs me

To be someone that she wants to be her partner in anyway specially in life

I know i dont have the criteria to be the perfect guy for her but i will

I may not be a typical guy cause of me being a shy type person

But i know for sure its serious and pure that this feeling is not a joke but love

Its been a year and half since the last time felt this feeling that makes me like a fool every time
This feeling that always been my partner when times comes that my heart beats again for someone
And even if i hate it i cant stop this feeling that burst out in me to fell in love again
I know its hard to trust a person that you just met in a while but i will for her
I wont court her if i dont love her for real or i wont court her if i dont like her
I know that i am not good to court someone cause i don't really know how
But i tried my best to show my feelings for her and how much i love her
If it comes that its like a battle of who get her heart first i wont stop even if i lose
so until the end i wont stop even if i fail ill love her with all my heart